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Alan

28 - mechanic - he/him


Yan's ex (derogatory). there is a lot to be said about Alan and none of it is good.

his Guardian Star/soul takes the form of a Dustox .

gay car guy in a universe where cars aren’t as common and aren’t associated with hyper masculinity. net zero commentary.

the most wet pathetic little meow meow. emotionally stunted self-destructive alcoholic, his crippling anxiety and poor impulse control are in a constant state of superposition. thinks he’s the worst person alive yet blames everyone around him for it and tries to put them on an unsustainable pedestal to victimize himself. will self flagellate instead of genuinely apologizing then hold that grudge for years. he’d rather be right in his belief he’s an unlovable fuckup than be happy, preferring misery to ever testing real change.

terrified of being left alone... yet that's exactly what he caused by himself.


you might think i’m being harsh but i wanna study my own psyche through him


backstory

born and raised in Camphrier, Kalos, in an apartment complex. his father was diagnosed with a terminal illness when he was a kid and decided to go out with a party/drug-fueled bang. his mother encouraged that but never recovered afterwards and her relationship with Alan has been fraught since her drinking got worse and her resentment towards him grew. it didn’t help that when she got with his step dad, he took Alan in as an apprentice in his car shop, and she became jealous of the attention.

he’s been friends with Kevin, who lived in the same building, since childhood and they used to always cover for each other when things got bad. their relationship was completely platonic but they couldn’t function without the other. even after Kevin's injury, Alan was secretly relieved it meant his only friend wouldn't abandon him.


this “balance” was slightly upset when Alan started dating Yan. they met at a party where Kevin had left him to probably go hook up with some girl, and he'd gotten too drunk to drive back; then Yan found him throwing up and helped him home. they just happened to cross paths weeks later and started going out. Yan could (for the most part) meet his emotional needs, which often included calling him up at 3 am mid-breakdown. their relationship would constantly swing from Alan begging for validation, to getting upset after receiving it cause he felt he couldn't be helped and Yan must only love him out of pity, always waiting for the other shoe to drop and demanding more.

from the get go it was clear Kevin saw Yan as a spineless pushover not deserving of his best friend. and progressively, Alan started allowing and justifying that mistreatment— he knew his friend was quick to anger but the way Yan would always manage to say the wrong thing around him was ridiculous. he couldn't mediate bewteen them every single time and he didn't want either of them to be mad at him.


to say Alan didn’t take the breakup well is an understatement. after everything they went through, the promises they made, the late nights daydreaming about setting off on a roadtrip through the region and never coming back, all that bullshit reassurance... Yan got tired of him, and abandoned him like everyone else. honestly he should've known, it was a matter of time until he ruined everything again. there's no reason someone as special as Yan would look at someone like him twice. and if such a kind and loving person couldn't see value in him anymore, nobody ever would. despite having multiple relationships in the past, this was the first time Alan felt the other person truly understood him and made life bearable.

while Kevin did his best to support him afterwards, it starts getting old when your best bro spends 5 years mourning a relationship with someone you thought was an idiot.

things degraded further when Kevin’s daughter was born. Alan had never liked children, and now the most important person left in his life would ignore him for multiple days at a time, all for an unplanned snotty leech.


Yan coming back to town during the Intermission was the straw that broke the Camerupt’s back: Kevin could not take care of his daughter while watching out to make sure Alan wasn’t doing something dangerous to get Yan’s attention, and cut all ties with him. unfortunately, that’s exactly what happened. as Yan refused to talk to him either, Alan, feeling suicidal, went out drunk driving one night, ran over a man, and crashed his car. Yan was pulled into trying to help him again, after realizing the dead man’s ghost was now haunting him, but tried to keep his distance this time.

after nearly a year of conversations that went nowhere and made clear Alan had no intention on improving, all while trying to convince him they belonged together hand in unlovable hand; Yan had to travel to Unova for Arc2 of the campaign. he gave Alan one last chance before leaving: the phone number of someone who’d help him get housing in another city, to start from a clean slate, and begged him to never contact him again.


pokemon

no pokemon! he thinks they’re too much of a hassle. and anyways, his mother probably wouldn’t like him having one in the house and he doesn’t want to fight with her over more things.

but he owns a teal colored Ford Cortina mk3 that is his only pride and joy


his tag - ship with Yan tag
Etganshe tag


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